Random Talks

Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards – Kierkegaard

What an inspiring quote, taught us much about life so we’re able to set whole new one. Life is a GIFT!

-Jump to another topic, I’d like to share about how can we keep becoming mentally monogamous on our entire life? I mean, we stick with one man or woman and never left her or him behind. For now, I’m just thinking that I can deal with that. I’m kinda person who have high loyal sense. When I fond of something or someone, I’ll keep them close and never let it go. Be thankful of mine, and never looking aside for another. So it must be very lucky whoever my soulmate, hehehe. I think I’m not used to adapt or adjust everything again and again every time I change what I’ve already had. I see that little bit laziness or sort of avoiding risk.
-Do you believe in God dear? Yes, definitely I do. I can’t deny His presence, His hand and guidance help me outta problem bless us powering up all the day. But sometimes, when people ask you to show your condolence or your sympathy through praying, I found it hard to do that. I wonder what I have to do, when others are praying hard, should I pretend to pray as well, or maybe just be casual which seem likely lead me to automatically looking other people’s faces? The problem is I couldn’t concentrate well, and it ends up to be that way.
-You should’ve thanked me guys. Why? because I share everything on my life with you for free, and you’ll never give anything instead of maybe just leaving some crap comment or whatever. Sorry to say, may you’ll found it unpleasant but at deepest of my heart, I surely think I don’t need someone or whoever come to my blog. I write for my self basically, in fact that it’s done online I just need good archive. I’m high, forget what I’ve just said. I chose to write it down, most of my writing and thought offline and keep it for myself. I thank my intuition, the point I wanna say is some things are better kept unsaid. And on top of that, all I’ve said can be condensed into one simple sentence: don’t be irritated because some of my post guarded with password.
-I have no idea, why I dropped my writing into this issues. I think we’re born in era that is so smart, so stiff that we’re no longer easily swayed and influenced by change. We don’t dare to leave the comfort zone, my room or maybe all your beloved room has already given what you need for most. Internet one again, change the way we behave, the way we communicate, the way we build relationship with others. And it ends up into one question, Can we deal with all the cons as direct result of those?I don’t know. Oh we do love establishment a lot, our main reason why do I stay here ITB,  in fact we build it and enslave ourselves to it. But above all, maybe I’ve just got to amused over something I believe was there. Maybe I’ve just missed something I’ve never had in my life.
-In fact that I’m not be able to create the whole big writing focused on one issue, I’ll write almost everything here so it’ll be much more longer in page. So, today my order finally got home. I bought beautiful pieces of headphone, yes Sennheiser HD 202. Omigod, never cross in my mind, I’ll have this cool and fancy stuff. As we know all Sennheiser product always be pricey, it costs me a lot but so far worth for it. I bought it yesterday, and today JNE pull it off good work by carrying them home. Big thanks, now much more easy to us when we need to buy anything. All you need to do, order it online but note that you’ll be better considering seller reputation, I’ll recommend for sister Rizkita Peotri, she was amazing delivered good service anyway. The stuff you’ve chosen, will be on front of your door in the next following day. What a chance to be more consumptive!I’m testing HD 202 right now, it works well, the sounds seem pretty good, I love it.

Vocabulary

under promise: then name seems to underpromise
to reference: codename to reference the previous version
glitz: simply not enough glitz
warrant: to warrant $129
clamor: which have been clamoring for
on top of that: piece of cake
apart: piece of caramel
stands out: there’s just not that much that stands out
pull it off: So did Apple pull it off?
snag: unexpected or hidden obstacles
whoop:loud cry of joy or excitement
snappier: more neat

This Thursday was packed and jammed!

I’ve done so much things today, quite much more than usual.
I woke late this morning, I missed or deliberately skipped my Metrology Class. I have to say, I always miss metro every time. Who’s on earth put those class on 7 a.m? that’s superb early morning for me. It’s an excuse by the way. But fortunately, I’ve been able to attend elmes II at 9 a.m. After that I went to ComLabs and hooked LAN cable, sending an email for my sister. But wait, I recall I went to LPKM first, took those scholarship application form. Right after that, I moved to ATM center. I sent money for sister Siska, in order to buy Sennheiser HD 202. She promised me, that my stuff will have been at the front of my door by tomorrow. Now, I’m waiting for crazy. Shortly after that, I headed to ComLabs, and stuck at DAP operator desk. Had a little chat with Yohan, he was making CV required for applying one of TI Laboratory when I came. At that time, my phone ringing, there was an message from Reza, he told me that I can meet him at ATM center. And thus, I rushed there because I had to met him in order to get my AIESEC application form back. Finally I met him, he was nice and I grabbed those paper, headed back to ComLabs.
I was online for about 3 hours, and then I remember that I need to collect my application letter for 8EH. For that I need to take my photo at Simpang, so I walked there maybe within 15 minutes I back at campus. Apart from that, I think I need an envelope to wrapped those application form, 2 photos, and CV ( I made in CD format, they said it mustn’t be common like plain paper). I bought envelope at Kokesma, I put all those stuff, squeezed them on envelope. I used to think that 8EH was near KBL or Kokesma, but I’m wrong. 8EH located on 8th floor PAU. I missed direction badly, sorry to say. I submitted my envelope and then when I exit I met Zomy. Ohmigod, I got message all MS’07 to gathered for event called Machining ‘08. Yes, I need to be closer with my friends, I decided to come. But crap! I didn’t have any jacket. I need to find someone to lend me. So Pariz help me to figured it out, who’s those buddy? We hit to Zico home eventually, he lend me his jacket because he wasn’t come. I’d like to extend my gratitude to both Pariz and Zico. I was happy, I could attend machining 08 and being senior is fun enough, we have power and authority. My activity ended at 6 p.m and I got break fasting with my MMM friends.
That’s all,and on top of that, this is the life I really deserve and dreaming about. Tomorrow will be more crowd and chaos. Damn, I love it!
-just my thought-

Leverage “The Top Hat Job” and Warehouse13 “Implosion”

I’ll give some short brief reviews of these TV serial I’v just seen.

Leverage, basically this TV show is about a group of people, gathered in one team and they’re trying to steal something from the rude mob. Every single episode is always interesting, because they come with different story and unpredictable ending. I love Hardison when he worked on their sophisticated stuff, he is hacker who can intrude a high level security system. The story can twist easily, so the plot somehow leads us to confusion. How’d they do this and that? Most of the tricks they practice remain mystery for me. In this “The Top Hat Job” episode, overall I love it. The plot quite good, and it flows well. “The Top Hat Job” is all about how leverage unveil the top secret of company that considered to endangered a lot of people. Actually, I have to say that I got into the story badly. So I can’t tell you much about this episode, just watch it by yourself. And I’m sure you’re gonna love it.

Warehouse 13, yes at the very first time I download this serial, I used to think that this wouldn’t be my favorite show. Warehouse 13 for me isn’t better than leverage, but yeah so so. It’s all about two agents Lattimer and Bering, who worked for their Boss Artie. Their mission is to save some weird artifact. Artifact that miraculously can do impossible things in common. I wanna make it short, this two agents from secret service have to safe and guard those artifact so it won’t hurt other people. Implosion is all about samurai artifact from Japan made when Edo Emperor was in charge. I can tell implosion wasn’t bad, even maybe it’s the best episode of Warehouse 13 I’ve ever seen. Worth for you to watch.

Okay here I am guys!

I have just read one of people’s blog, and I found that very inspiring anyhow. You know what, she (yeah ’she’) has graduated from one of the best universities in the world, yet never feel happy about her life. She hasn’t got a job yet, I don’t know why but maybe she went into something really really wrong. And then I think that she might be who I am when I graduate, if I didn’t make any changes. She really my copycat!

I have to say that I miss the time when life is easy, the day that happiness is a must, when I could pass school without studying. Yet my record seems right even one of the best, yes people treat me as special. At that time, welcoming a bright future quite likely. When my mother called me, I just can’t say much. All the miles separating badly. I really wanna say that I’m not good, I haven’t been eating well, I haven’t sleep well, I haven’t study well, and so forth. And my home-stay is in a mess.

I used to life with my parents, for maybe 17 years of my life, that makes me safe and peace in someway. When I arrived in Bandung, I didn’t how to wash my own clothes nor iron them. As much as I know that I learned great deal of stuffs by living alone. I have to say that I miss the time when life went easy, when I don’t have to worry about my night food or running out money. When I believe that I was special and one day I would be successful person as I used to watch at TV. So much about optimism and enthusiasm.

Nowadays I glanced through my messy and narrow room. A heap of books, and clothes cluttering on chair. All I want now, finish my study asap and get good job. But in fact, I can’t barely pass my exam paper, what a pity I am. I still remember when I fall into silence, while I couldn’t write anything on my CV because I’m not that well. So pathetic and shallow!

I used to be very passionate about my life, my friends, my surrounding and whatever that come to me. My feelings towards things used to be very intense and pulsed. Nothing can really make me very happy, yet nothing can make really sad either. I don’t have many friends, I wonder why. I used to think that I’m quite good at friendship but it just wrong presumption. I have some who care a lot, but nobody can really stick with me.

Sometime I wonder if it was my life in Bandung that has changed me, terminates my happiness, alter my orientation? who knows? I need to keep standing and face everything gently.

Here I have very gorgeous quote,
“Everything that happened, happened for a reason”

I could only encourage myself.

online.auction

My senior says, ” Last Month, I tried using online business s****e.com to get far far cheap cool stuff on that site. At that time, their online rating looked good and I didn’t see anything to suggest they were a scam. They’d been covered by so many visitor and have official office, so seemed legit. But then, a couple months later under my investigation, I’m ready to say yes, yes they are a scam.”

Moral of the story, please pay more attention at online business because there are a lot of fraud out there.

Write Write Write!

That word keep spinning in my head, I just need to feed my spirit and turn it into something real. Guess what, I need write everyday, stay low head and better direction. Wise enough to see all the things in my life in different perspective. I was expecting be able to write everyday, but in facts that’s not feasible for me. Let me excuse, I don’t have any ubiquitous internet connection yet. I have one at ComLabs, but not all the time in the other hand my idea my come up whenever or wherever. Therefore, my writings sometimes wouldn’t be that fresh, because I’ve already kept it for a while, waiting to go online somewhere.

Everlasting Life!

…but the Everlasting Life is better, and more enduring. (Al-A’laa 87:17)

Guys have you ever feel empty and dull? you lost your guidance and sometimes keep cursing your days over and over again… You have no idea what do you wanna be?what’s drive you?and it means you need adjust your life, set your new ultimate goal and without doubt “Everlasting Life” is the answer. Don’t be too busy with your ‘first life’ and just count to Allah the one that you can really depend on! Believe you’ll gonna feel safe and peace at every single pulse of your heart. Trust me it works!

Pendet is truly Indonesia!

Definitely pendet is always be from Indonesia, who’s on earth didn’t know that? As Indonesian, I really angry of what ma***sia (I don’t even have any intention to call those country plainly). Ohmigod, I think all Indonesian should never step their foot on those cursed ma***sia land. Damn, I love Indonesia!!! and I always struggle for this country. I think ma***sia is threat for Indonesia, we have to keep distance don’t be to close, ma***sian people never be that kind, they’re so conceited, arrogant, cruel no matter what. I swear to God, commit to my country!
*Oh God, this is my fault, I found it hard to express my displeasure in written English!*
But believe me, I’ll never let ma***sia insult my beloved country. That just their nature to keep stealing everything belonged to Indonesian culture. I fully support Jero Wacik, he acted quite responsive and show their unhappy feeling.
Eventually, I come to conclusion, that Ma***sia doesn’t have any strong culture that can be proud of so they always take it from Indonesia.

What I’ve Done?

I am really not proud of what I did and who I were in the past.
Nevertheless, the fact that I can look back and realize the mistakes I made implies that I am evolving.
Wow If I could go back in the past and fix all this mess…
I feel like I have run out of track or maybe I climb ladder of success fast but that ladder just lean on ‘wrong wall’. That just send me nowhere. OhmiGod! I desperately looking for identity, yeah what the hell is that, I feel so unstable and fragile I hope I have one who stand by my side and be able to understand what I’ve through.

I was thinking that I didn’t deserve to be loved nor making friends!
I worried when people treat me well in front of my nose, yet at the bottom of their heart they’re gonna reject me at the back.
So now I think, I just to be the one who give not the one who beg others to respect me or so. Because it put me ease when you share something, and I just hate to owe something. And maybe people will like me. I might like myself if they do. My life is always the battle between me and myself.
At least for now , I know who I am, what I am capable of doing and what I don’t,
and who I want to be.
Thus there is a slight hope that five years down the road ,
I might look into myself and see the person whom I want to see.

For now , I guess… it is good enough that I have stopped condemning myself..
and one day I might really learn to accept myself and be content.
And at least, now I know that I deserve to be happy.